I find it easier to wrap my brain around it one way, you might find it different for you
Yep. I'm a bottom-up learner. I need to be able to understand all lower principles first. Or else I can't remember well.
But my fascination with MO is
much deeper now than at the time of my first post. (When it just seemed like a interesting topic.)
I just think it's the most F*$%@#! amazing thing.
I won't get far into it unless you want to wait for me write an unwritten book...
Actually, I'm not too sure myself why MO appeals to me so much. I know it isn't necessary for me to learn this, but I just wanna BE there at least once. At the lowest level of our understanding. (Not the lowest, of course, but damn close enough!) Using only pencil, paper, calculator and brain. Bad ass stuff.
Maybe its just how a complex system of continuously reacting "matter", can have the "intelligence" to come up with "mathematical" models and other systems that enable it to accurately make predictions. With no other "purpose", than to improve its own conditions. With the words in quotes having absolutely no relevance outside consciousness.
Insane.
Welll... I'm gonna force myself to stop here. It is very hard to explain.