This might end up being just me complaining...not in a bad way, of course, just feeling a little down, so I decided to take a break, be mopey for a little while, and maybe even ask for some guidance. (Sorry, again, if this is in the wrong forum...it seems right, though, but I'm not sure. And to whomever has the ability to move it, please move it if it's in the wrong forum)
Anyway, I have a Chemistry test tommorow which is why I'm feeling particularly down in the dumps at the moment. I've been studying this for a bit, and when our teacher teaches this stuff in class, I totally get it. It's not hard, and I feel like I understand it. At least...I think I do until I go out and try to prepare. I mean, okay, first of all, our teacher is a million different kinds of amazing. He's funny, smart, patient, and really knows what he's doing. He goes the extra mile to try and help kids understand...so, I don't get why I don't understand. I mean, I do, but never when it matters.
He talks about it in class, and I completely get it. I didn't before, but now I actually follow the lessons. But then, I go home and I open my book, take out my worksheets, and I freeze. Everything stops making sense and it's like I'm staring at something written in another language or something. It's the same when I ask questions, take tests, anything other than just listening...and it frustrates me. Last week, when I went to get help, I actually had to ask him what molar mass was...
It was just embarrassing, and I don't know why I do that. I mean, I'm not stupid...True, I'm not particularly bright either, but I know I'm better than what my test scores say, and I know I work harder than it seems, yet...I don't know why I don't get it. Maybe if I were stupid or if I hated the class, I would care less, but I'm not, and I don't (hate the class, I mean).
It's really getting to me because tommorow, I have a Chemistry test which I have been studying really hard on, but I can't seem to remember anything. And I swore to myself that I would do better, but apparently, that's not going to happen. Anyway, I've taken out my worksheets, and when I look at them, I know that it's easy, and that we've discussed it in class a million times, but now, I can't seem to get the answer anymore. It's just not coming. And all the definitions and equations that I've worked hard to memorize this weekend, just seem to have been forgotten...and I don't know why.
And every single time, seriously, every single time, I sit down to take a test, I know the answer, but it's just out of my reach and I can't get it. The annoying thing is, I love Chemistry, it's the one subject I want desperately to excell in, but I don't. Sometimes, I honestly just want to bash my head in with my Chemistry book or something...
Has this happened to anybody? Does anybody know what I can do to get over it? Am I just hopeless? I don't seem to know anymore.