I just got out of the military and started school, I have no idea what I should be doing though. I have no passions or interests that relate to a job or degree (unless I want to be a guy who tastes food and beer while playing video games, does that exist) so I am trying to figure out how to pick a major.
I just chose one that looked good, I picked chemical engineering since I always had an interest in chemistry and I like a challenge. I am very competitive actually so I love a challenge, I get bored if things are easy. So I started taking college algebra and I am going to fail the class, I have tutors, attend office hours, study at least 10 hours a week and I still can't get above a D on the tests. I enjoy the math sometimes, I like working out and solving problems in my head and I love getting a right answer but I can't think of anything more frustrating than constantly failing every single test when I feel like I got a high grade on it.
I am also taking a chemistry class and I hate it, it is one of the most boring classes I have taken and due to the time commitment from math I have no studied at all for it. I hear that the later classes should be more interesting so I have no idea.
Of all that classes I have taken I wouldn't say any really grab me, I am not passionate about any of them really, so how the hell do I pick a major? At this point it feels more like survival, I need money to survive and my job will never bring me happiness because I will never be passionate about it so I need to find a job that requires as little time commitment as possible. Does that sound about right?
Also how many times should I take this math class before I admit that math just isn't for me?
Just rambling I guess, I am suppose to be passionate about something that has me in some way contributing society and not just myself. I like to play video games but that will never help anyone else, I like to watch TV shows but that will never help anyone else. I need to force myself to be passionate about something that will get me money?
I hated my job in the military but as I did it for longer I hated it less and now I miss it. I was good at something, I had a purpose, goals, I did stuff, I set a goal and I would accomplish it. Now I just feel like I have no idea what to do, I have all these goals but they might not even be goals and they might not be attainable and they might not even be something I do enjoy anyways. I just have no idea what to do. I hear chemistry gets better later on. I have no passions or interests really.
I have got so caught up in this that I am having trouble doing anything else, all I can do is think about if I am wasting all my time and money on something I won't like or won't be able to do. There are so many questions and I have no answers.